My Blog’s First Anniversary: Wisdom

Wisdom:

The ability to discern or judge what is true, right, or lasting; insight.
Common sense; good judgment: “It is a characteristic of wisdom not to do desperate things” (Henry David Thoreau).

The sum of learning through the ages; knowledge: “In those homely sayings was couched the collective wisdom of generations” (Maya Angelou).
Wise teachings of the ancient sages.
A wise outlook, plan, or course of action.

Today is my blog’s first anniversary. Throughout this year I have shared many highs and lows, aired my triumphs and dirty laundry (which I admit was at times sordid). During these past 365 days I have emerged wiser, and this wisdom bestowed upon my from this year’s experiences has taught me one thing: THAT THERE ARE NO QUICK FIXES! None!

I have learned not to chase the fast bucks but to slowly build momentum that will allow me to realize my goals. This week I happily announced that I secured a full-time permanent government position; and, although it pays little, it will provide me with the requisite stability to payoff debt, finance my graduate education, build a retirement nest egg, save for homeownership and just plain have fun! Already I have decided to keep this position until May 2007 when I graduate with my Masters in Economics. This job combined with the student loan refund check will enable me to build, sustain and expand my professional network by joining and paying dues to economic organizations, present papers at conferences, use vacation pay to attend the 2006 Urban League Convention and have a real entertainment budget!

This realization has provided me with the wisdom and has empowered me to the extent that I anticipate typing my second anniversary journal entry on December 31, 2006. On that day I would be on the cusp of completing my Masters and closer towards achieving my career objective of becoming an Economist.

Though I have had some missteps, I will be the first to admit that I would NOT CHANGE anything!

I Need a Little Patience

At the new hire meeting today the human resources representative mentioned that our application must be reviewed then certified; and, upon the board’s approval my start date will be in late January 2006.

I guess that flustered me a little because yesterday I called the financial aid office to hold my loan refund check but the employee informed me that all checks were to be mailed to my permanent address. Well, I would be moving onto campus the same day and I really do need that check to purchase my books and supplies.

However, an idea popped into my mind while calling my last three employers to obtain the fax numbers for recommendations. Two of them are temporary agencies so I will call all temporary agencies and submit my new resume to them to be considered for employment from early January until my start date! Ingenious!

Immediately after the meeting, I called the graduate economics department regarding my registration. The secretary questioned why I needed to take such an advanced math class to which I responded that the professor said that I didn’t qualify for econometrics because quantitative analysis only satisfied the minimum requirements but was not a substitute for ECN 622. The conversation then turned to my taking precalculus and calculus. The secretary then responded that I should contact the mathematics office.

Afterward, I called the undergraduate office regarding taking the placement exams as a graduate student. That secretary mentioned that maybe not but I might have to enroll as a non-degree graduate student. Therefore, I should contact the graduate math department regarding this matter. She provided his email and I sent him an inquiry to ensure that this matter will be resolved prior to January 4, 2006, the date my students loans are disbursed.

All of this running-around-with-my-head-cut-off-like-a-chicken is getting to me especially during the holidays. However, I always remember that all I can control is my performance; and, with that I will focus on preparing for the comprehensive microeconomic and macroeconomic exams, type my scholarship applications and leave the rest on the altar!

Victory!

Victory: 1) final supremacy in battle of war. 2) an instance of this. 3) success in any struggle involving the defeat of an opponent, etc.

Finally, I am victorious by receiving a full-time position with benefits! No temporary agency necessary! : )

Great News!

Great News! A HR person emailed me regarding an Economist application apologizing for her tardy response to which I replied that I was happy to hear from her. Then she sent me an email stating that I would hear from her soon! Is that great or what?!

Okay today I am feeling a little cheap right now because I do have $20 remaining but I am debating whether or not I should blow all of it by seeing The Family Stone and purchase my personal items even though it is Bargain Monday? After consideration, I will just buy my personal items and save the remainder because remember I have a full-week ahead from the federal interview to tying up all of the loose ends before Christmas!

Circle of Light

Today’s phone interview was the BEST EVER! The three interviewers were affable, could laugh at themselves and were strong-minded people, just like moi! I emailed them their thank you letters because a decision would be made tomorrow and honesty, I would like to work there!

The graduate economics administrative assistant is a godsend for bestowing wonderful advice regarding the application process.

• On registering for classes: GO to financial aid first (I mentioned my decision to reside on campus). Plus, I could register online.
• If financial aid rejects the undergraduate economics classes: the office could register me as a non-degree undergraduate,
• One telling the professor about auditing the economics course: DON’T. He doesn’t need to know. And, speaking about auditing, the lady gave me the exact same book that professor used this semester to prepare for the exams. How good is that? :)
  
  In addition, she notified me that she had mailed my acceptance letter yesterday and that I should receive it either today or Thursday. Great, now I can apply for internships, cooperative education and fellowships!
  
  Upon exiting the building and boarding the bus, the driver implored about school to which I responded, “I just came from Cleveland State.” He replied, “ Good and you should finish.” During the bus ride, an idea just popped into my head: to incorporate positive reinforcement at the end of each chapter to mentally assure myself of passing the comprehensive exams! Great idea!

Ridding Myself of Toxic People

This past weekend has provided me with much needed positive reinforcement to carry on throughout this week. Sunday’s Astrology.com gave me substantial proclamation “No matter where you are, don’t get comfy, because the universe isn’t done with you yet. Apparently, its your turn to be jolted out of a rut, and whether you’ve ready for it or not won’t matter your best bet? Resolved to be flexible. In addition, Joel Osteen’s sermon about ridding myself of toxic people to create a positive environment spoke to me and my trials and tribulations regarding my educational pursuits and the people around. He said that family members are the main people who discourage your dreams. How true this is! Afterward, I realized that I must move into the graduate dorm to focus on improving me. I am around a lot of toxic people. Yesterday, I mailed my $20 residence application because it is a priority that I remove myself from a negative situation.

A Sign

The interviewer grilled me mercilessly during the thirty minute Economist phone screen. Obviously, I didn’t know a lot about REITs and convertible bonds but I do like to fly J Well, I will send him a thank you letter. Maybe this was a sign because I have another Economist phone interview with a County government. At least, I can prepare for two more interviews: one with Active Health Management and the other with the County Government. This time, I will be prepared!

Find a Way

Lo and behold. Look what the wind blew in! My employer finally contacted me for a job. I was amazed because honestly I didn’t think that he would contact me for the remainder of the year. Well, now I have an opportunity to get some Christmas cash (I will earmark some of it towards CSU.)

Okay back to yesterday’s job interview. The county job was a panel interview with three supervisors. It went well because the first supervisor outright proclaimed that I would be a good fit for her department because of my skill set. That remark blew me away. However, the moment immediate after the interview outshined it by far.

About two weeks ago, an television investigative reporter caught some employees using popsicle sticks messing with meters to park for free. Not only did I see one of the culprits but she had her arm in a sling (I silently wondered if her injury was a direct result of the popsicle? Ha-ha.

Patented

Today I enrolled in a Patent Searching class offered by the public library. It was extremely informative and improved my understanding about this area, because I was always fascinated with the work behind it. There is at least a 27-month process from submittal to issuing one. Interesting?!

Well, this learning course also offered free computer time, which I am taking advantage of because the library restricts each patron to two hours per day. Of course, I have located numerous economist job vacancies, which of course, I am applying; however, I will tie up loose ends by Friday!


Later today, I have an interview with for the civil service exam position. I believe that I will get the job because I scored so high plus I am friendly and possess great customer service and typing skills! If I receive this job, I will keep it for the duration of my graduate studies then upon receiving my degree will post out into another position. Maybe an Officer one! However, I know that I will achieve great things this time around.

Afterward, I will type the Administrator a thank you letter to ensure that I am considered for this position.

The Art of Winning

Today I called the graduate economics program in regards to the two emails that I sent the department. These correspondences were about my graduate coursework that I took at another college. The secretary acknowledged the oversight then confirmed that my application had been resent to the committee for approval. Great. That meant I would only have to take one economics course and calculus! Afterward this confirmation, I made a follow-up call with a potential employer regarding the civil service test and interview. The office representative scheduled me for an afternoon interview. I was so psyched because I knew that I would secure this position.

And now while at the Harvard-Lee library, another employer contacted me to schedule a phone interview for next week. Of course, I immediately responded because I need all of the leads that I can obtain! Also, I will complete my Secretary application to qualify for more federal jobs located here in Cleveland.

A Thank You Letter Goes A Long Way

I nailed the job interview! Both recruiters mentioned how much they loved my thank you letters and one even blurted out that “ when you get this position” then promptly corrected herself by stating “ if you get this position” Ha! The thank you letters gave me brownie points. At the conclusion of the interview, they asked me about my availability to which I responded: I am available to start this week!

Right now I am mailing my thank you letters for conducting my interview to ensure a lock on this position! :)

Acceptance!

Cleveland State University has accepted me into its spring 2006 class! Even though I have to iron out some of the kinks regarding transferable courses, I am nonetheless, ecstatic that I will be pursuing my M.A. in Economics! All of the my prayers have been answered. Now I am fully engaged in writing scholarships, requesting financial aid and preparing for my next step!

Remembering Rosa Parks

Today, Thursday, December 1, 2005, marks the fiftieth anniversary commemorating Rosa Parks’ simple defiance of refusing to give her bus seat to a white man on a Montgomery, Alabama bus. I knew this but was still fumbling through my email to locate the event information to be there on time. Even though I do not have any work today, I wouldn’t stroll down there in jeans; therefore, I dressed appropriately in professional dress and stockings and made my way to the program.

Having just returned from the Cleveland, Ohio ceremony held at the City Hall Rotunda. Both the Greater Cleveland Regional Transit Authority, the county public transportation company, and the Ohio Civil Rights Commission were in attendance as well as a series of speakers; however, the most important person was the keynote speaker, Gina Abercrombie-Winstanley, Chairwoman of the Foreign Service Institute’s Middle East Area Studies. Hailing from Cleveland Heights, Ohio, she served as a mother of two children and a Foreign Service Officer and her speech helped me realize that I too could ascend the ranks of power. After the ceremony, I discussed my career aspirations of seeking a foreign service position in Washington, D.C. She gave me her business card and told me to register for the foreign service exam. When I informed her that I took the exam but didn’t pass, she confided that she didn’t pass the first time and to not become discouraged. Also, email her about any additional opportunities. Of course, I will email her today to ensure that I realize all potential opportunities, but, more importantly find a mentor. It was amazing that we both come from the same place and have the same interests and with some nurturing and supervision will be able to achieve these goals of becoming a Foreign Service Officer!

Getting over the Hump

Today has been nothing less than unpredictable and in a way that’s just the way I like it! Earlier this morning, the Volt representative called to inform me that the accounting firm wants to schedule an interview! Cool. Initially I sat in shock because those interviews were supposed to take place on November 14th and 21st, but I will take it. The most impressive thing throughout this process has been the advocacy and cheerleading that this Volt representative has had for me since the beginning. She has been extremely supportive and tomorrow will help me prepare for it.

This push and positive energy are necessary to endure the next collision: CVS pharmacy told me that 1000 pills will cost me $135! Yikes! Last time at the Bedford Heights CVS the same prescription cost $20 max. Immediately I called my doctor’s office and relayed the message to the secretary who also told me that this very pharmacy tried to report my doctor to the medical board for writing a 1000-pill subscription. Oh my goodness. This cannot be happening to me. After calling the secretary again, we both agreed to cancel the prescription and called the hospital’s pharmacy which provided the quote of $45.87. That’s more like it! I will pay the prescription with my own money which will hopefully arrive today. If not I will ask my mother for assistance. Thursday I will ask the secretary to have my doctor write another prescription for me because that episode was downright ridiculous!

More good news! The National Hook-Up for Black Women, Incorporated has notified me via email that it will send me a scholarship application to be eligible for its Chicago regional scholarship! This has made my day! In addition, to the two other scholarships offered by this organization, I qualify for all three! I will place my best foot forward to ensure that I run the table because I possess the credentials to successfully garner this money and really do want to attend graduate school debt-free!

Turnaround Tuesday

Earlier this morning, our electricity went out (luckily, it was warm, and, thus didn’t need the heat.); however, this was a precursor of what was to come. This incident interrupted my sleep disallowing me to catch any REM thereby making me late for my volunteer assignment. Upon arriving fifteen minutes late, I discussed the Holiday Spirit article highlighting our organization’s alcohol recovery programs. Then I later discovered that I had received an Internet account complete with Raiser’s Edge password and systems access. Also, I have my own computer and desk. Great! Finally, I am a member of the team. No more sharing computers. Then immediately a scare overcame me. Having been let go for breaking “Internet policy” I thought that this could be my Achilles heel. No matter I signed the contract and continued doing my work. Throughout the three-hour period, thoughts raced through my mind: “ What if I checked my email? “ Yet, I regained my focus and devoted my time and effort towards reviewing the files. At the end of my volunteering stint, I spoke with my supervisor to iron out any future details. She asked about my job hunt and I replied that I was interested in research while secretly thinking that I would like to have the Database Analyst job here if only I learned some more software. She said that she would keep a look out for me!

Upon exiting the building, I called my current employer regarding why he didn’t mail my paycheck. He remarked that he would do it right now; and, when I inquired about the other two jobs, he said that he didn’t need me for those tow and that he would call; thereby, ending my current working relationship with him which is okay because of how deviant and aloof he was regarding steady compensation. Yes, I know that I will be broke this upcoming December; however, I do feel that I will be accepted into Cleveland State University thereby qualifying me for all kinds of student employment, cooperative education and internships! Afterward, I called some more temporary agencies and asked that since this was late November/early December should I call next year? Most replied “yes”; therefore, letting me wash my hands of them; however one did not and said that she would call me back later (It is 2:40pm and that has yet to materialize!) These exchanges took me back to the conversation I had with my father yesterday about how employers don’t hire after Thanksgiving. For the last six years I don’t why I am a always in a rut at the end of the year; however, 2006 will be decidedly different because I will know what is in front of me!

Action!

The postal customer representative called me to apologize for the ignorance displayed by her fellow postal worker last week Wednesday. He was way out of character regarding his know-nothing attitude about the changes in postage rates. I am so happy that my compliant was takedn seriously because that entire situation was unnecessary!

This Week Monday

I have resting all last week from Thanksgiving onward enjoying my rest, family and catching all college football I could handle! Today has been a wonderful day. It’s sixty degrees, balmy and a welcomed respite from the artic air and snow that dominated last week. Also I have located and applied for another federal economist position. Hopefully, this week will be way better than last week especially regarding my employer. He didn’t mail my paycheck because he thought the bill was duplicate! I couldn’t believe this. However, his ignorance served as a reminder of whay I am returning to school: to achieve some kind of financial stability through cooperative education, internships, and assistantships. Remember, I only have to complete four graduate economic courses to qualify for the GS-7 Economist positions! This goal will be accomplished by August 2006! :) Also, I have just faxed my transcripts to complete the Economic Analyst and BLS Economist applications! I believe that I will have a full-time job that I love by late December/early January because of my commitment and effort.

Ask and You Shall Receive

Right after my first computer session, I called the community college technology recruiter regarding the proximity between online and offline course offerings. The lady kindly explained them to me then concluded the conversation by asserting to “call her in the event that I wanted to enroll in December 2005 courses just in case.” Wow! The power of positive communication! I will translate this towards my other job prospects because I believe that I have a lot to offer.

Take the Good with the Bad

This week, of course, is Thanksgiving and the one thing that I am extremely thankful for is for having a job. Even though it is part-time, this income allows me to plan my return to school. While watching today's Tyra Show, she discussed how she and her mother were in France and immediately after a couple ordered everything off of the menu at a Chinese restaurant, they stole some of the food from their table. Granted, I never had to beg like that, but her plight and success made me appreciative of the fact that I don't have it that bad; and, how I must capitalize upon everything I have.

Today the County Administrative Officer left a voicemail informing me that I passed all three sections of the Information Processor 1 battery with flying colors! However, I cannot locate my house key (I will find it eventually). This forces me to buy more trash bags, but also to become more organized (I am a little piggy at times. I admit! ) Now I must confront my pack-rattiness and discard anything that doesn't assist in moving me forward. I really do need to get rid of a lot of things, and what better way than now. If I am accepted to Cleveland State, I cannot bring all of this junk with me to the dorm; therefore, today I will throw out as many bags of trash as possible. This is will power and determination to clearly focus on my objectives of owning my own place and becoming an Economist and songwriter (I see these two ventures as part of my uniqueness.)

And more good news: I have checked my phone and saw a voicemail from another company which is interested in me from the Cleveland State University Career Fair. I am so happy that immediately after completing this session, I will return the recruiter’s phone call. That is remarkable especially since yesterday, I planned to apply to all of the employers in the Career Fair handout. I will still complete these plans to position myself to interview and land a job for the new year. It is all about planning and execution!

All is Right with the World

Ohio State beat Michigan 25-21 and all is right with the world! :) I can now watch WEWS 5 Sports Saturday tonight at 11:30pm. Viewing it wire-to-wire, I though during the third quarter that OSU might let this one get away; however, with one minute remaining, the team pulled out a victory! Now I have bragging rights on certain fellow YPers would rooted for Michigan (one even dared to wear her Michigan sweater in the middle of Buckeye Country. The nerve of her!)

Urban League Equal Opportunity Luncheon

The organization’s luncheon was magnificent replete with all of the movers and shakers of the black business community in attendance. As a Young Professional, our table was reserved (though it was in the back :(. However, all of my fellow YPers brought their camaraderie thereby providing a festive environment. The marketing co-chair and I discussed her graduate examination prep courses and data mining classes at CSU. Good, I responded that I received both CSU and Tri-C’s books within a two day period. Mentally I hoped that the online classess offered the same instruction and the offline ones since there were big price differentials. During the event, the keynote speaker noted that blacks comprised of only 6% of Greater Cleveland bachelor’s degree recipient. His remark floored me because I obtained both a bachelor’s and a master’s; so, did that statistic make me 1% of the population? Kind of scary! The event was pretty good (it always is when you do not pay yet still receive a ticket!) :)

Rebound

Today I have successfully rebounded from the travesties of earlier this week; and, will build upon this momentum throughout the remainder of this week. The Data Analyst phone interview wasn’t what I expected because the conversation left me a little insecure as to whether or not I would be receive an interview. However, the highlight of my day was calling the Rockwell Automation human resources representative and she’d actually remembered me from the CSU Career Fair three weeks ago! :) Also she told me to call her on November 28th regarding the position!

During my lunch break, a recruiter returned my voicemail and immediately discussed her concerns regarding my spotty work history and below-average grade point average. Well, though I provided her with straightforward explanations, they did little to totally convince her about selecting. Honestly, during this exchange I almost felt compelled to withdraw my application. Well, at least she was honest.

At least I have my BEA Economist applications!

A Series of Unfortunate Events

Omg! When I awoke this morning, little did I know what would be in store for me today! Of course, I knew that I would attend this social luncheon at a tony restaurant however the majority of my day was unscripted. I traveled downtown to deposit my check only for the teller to inform me that my employer didn’t sign the check! This is amazing and all the more reason why I need a full-time job. I am praying to God to deliver me from this situation. First he didn’t mail last week’s pay until Thursday and because Veterans Day was last Friday, I couldn’t deposit it until Saturday; therefore, the funds weren’t available until this past Tuesday! And, now this! I do not know about this one! I am going to conveniently make my exit because this is ridiculous! Immediately after being embarrassed at the bank, I headed over to my social function and of course, was the first one there. :) The eatery is one of three restaurants in the area serving Mediterranean cuisine, has a great reputation for food and service. All of the waiters speak both English and Spanish. However, when I asked to be seated in the reserved area, the waiter replied, “Excuse me, but I didn’t understand your English?!” Also unbeknownst to me the organization didn’t reserve my meal selection so I was forced to wait 15 minutes while everyone else ate. Plus I had to deal with this dude who was a first-rate jerk broadcasting all of his business around the room (He exclaimed that he only remembered this event ten minutes ago.”) Honestly, I didn’t think that I would return again.

After walking to the library, I logged onto the computer to reply to the bank email about relocating to Charlotte, North Carolina. The HR person tersely responded “ We aren’t considering you because we found a local candidate.” Bitch! I responded “ Thank you.” Nothing today has been going well for me and because I Can make my own hours, I will buy dinner and retire early.

And the Truth Shall Set You Free

As you can see, I have been blogging a lot today!

I have just told my mother that I have applied to Cleveland State University's Graduate Economics program; and, for some reason, I know that I have some explaining to do (given her awkward response.) Oh well, at least she has a heads-up about my situation. I do need to return to school to obtain my graduate economics degree to be more competitive.

Submission Complete

I have just mailed my Cleveland State University application to be considered for the Spring 2006 class. Immediately afterward, I returned to the library only to be cut in front of by some rogue teenager. But that's okay because I will still complete all of my tasks from searching for scholarships to planning the remainder of my day and tomorrow! :)

The majority of my day has been good and what more can I ask for?

More Economist Jobs!

Yippee! Today I have located and applied to more than six economist positions bringing November's total to over ten! And, this is only the 15th:) In addition, I have finished my Cleveland State University application and will copy it on bond paper and mail it today! As nervous as I am now, I believe that I will be accepted into Cleveland State because I have received my MBA from this institution!

I wish myself success, because luck runs out!

Speaking Truth Into Existence

Happy Birthday goes out ot my father, Ricardo Chavez Jenkins, who is 56 today! :)

Today I took a county battery test to be considered for the Information Officer position. These tests served as a barometer of our proficiency. Prior to taking this exam, a lady was proclaiming how she would not pass the test because she couldn’t type and that she’d hoped that I didn’t out-type her. I laughed her remark off because I was determined to excel on this test. Mentally I prepared myself to succeed; and, after the typing test, her words came to fruition. She was excused from continuing with the remaining test-takers because her error rate was too high. I truly believed the reason from her failure was that she spoke her own truth, albeit bad, into existence.

Though the three remaining tests were harder and I did not complete all of them, I felt that I would be considered for an interview because the test proctor mentioned that the group had to have 13 correct checking answers, 9 correct mathematic answers and 6 reading comprehension. Done! Upon the completion of those tests, I discussed my results with other participants and they mentioned how they initially had problems with the math section; however, their remarks weren’t as discouraging nor disparaging as the first lady’s; therefore, I believed that I would be victorious come Wednesday when I contact the administrator for my results. In the meantime, I would prepare for my next step.

Economic Research Paper Drama II

I have decided to write about my economic condition and research my purchasing power as a black woman college graduate rather than gas prices because the topic is something that I have more interested and can research more effectively. Plus because of all of my new commitments have extended my personal deadline to Friday, November 18, 2005. Also, writing this research will serve as a springboard to the ASA/BLS Fellowship paper due in December. Hah! Ingenious! I will get on this Monday.

Weekend Errands

Today I rose at 7am traveled to the bank , post office and now the library all before 10:30am. Whew! At least I have gotten everything out of the way from balancing my books to typing my graduate school candidacy letter, and now can enjoy the Ohio State game, writing my book and Cosmic Bowling!

For some reason I am feeling writing a book that encapsulates my life. I am so fullof ideas and with all of the good things that has happened to me, I believe that it is high time to share it with people! Hopefully, I can add graduate economic student to this list!

Next week will be big for me because I have a phone interview for the Data Analyst position, a administrative battery test, and three social events! I will keep my audience posted!

Wake Up Call

Right after returning from the Hostess Bakery, I took a shower then temporarily lost my eyeglasses by mistakenly placing them behind the toilet paper. I searched everywhere in my room to locate them because a temporary agency called me to submit my resume to be considered for placement, but I couldn’t find them! Prior to her call, I lazily watched television and planned to go to the library at 1pm; however, her phone call made me jump up and leave an hour earlier; or, at least so I thought. The appointment I made with the librarian I was forced to reschedule because I could had found them on time to catch my bus.

Though I am now embarrassed to admit such a thing, I am actually content with knowing that I was still on schedule. What would the circumstances be if I decided to leave on time and the same thing happened: I would had been screwed. The recruiter gave me a literal “wake up call” reminding me that I must be organized to realize every opportunity coming my way.

Economic Research Paper Drama

Okay. I have just received an email informing me to be considered for this Economic position that I must submit a 5-7 page economic paper. The problem is that I cannot locate any one of my disks that would have this information. Rats! So here I am conducting research from scratch. My personal deadline is Monday, November 14th. This should give me enough time to collect data and write three drafts. Wish me success because luck runs out!

Thank You Letters

Today rather run out of the house at the crack of dawn, I instead remained at home to call recruiters about the status of my job applications. Most were nice, a few weren’t but overall I did obtain a lot of information about the status of my apps. The majority of my economist applications were still in the decision making process and even though I didn’t receive consideration for the Idaho economist position, I could speak with the actual human resources representative regarding what my resume lacked(It turned out to be experience. Well, since I am working as a Report Writer, I am making up for this paucity of employment experience!) Also, for the Florida economist job, the recruiter mentioned that I was the number two choice however, number one had more experience. Okay, I believed that their feedback helped me reassess my employment priorities and reaffirmed why it is imperative that I submit my graduate economics application to Cleveland State University!

Update

Okay! Now it is time to bring my audience up to date. I have been extremely busy these past tow days from voting to checking the status of my job applications to chasing down my employer regarding my check (Once again, whenever he’s wrong, “I need to get a computer!”) After our exchange, I felt screwed that though I gave him my bill Saturday, he didn’t mail my check until Wednesday. The problem with this is that today is Thursday and I cannot deposit the check on Friday because it’s Veterans Day. Lucky me I have a stash but still. I am attending all of these career fairs to find a full-time or part-time job. Anything to get me away from him and this!

Update

Okay! Now it is time to bring my audience up to date. I have been extremely busy these past tow days from voting to checking the status of my job applications to chasing down my employer regarding my check (Once again, whenever he’s wrong, “I need to get a computer!”) After our exchange, I felt screwed that though I gave him my bill Saturday, he didn’t mail my check until Wednesday. The problem with this is that today is Thursday and I cannot deposit the check on Friday because it’s Veterans Day. Lucky me I have a stash but still. I am attending all of these career fairs to find a full-time or part-time job. Anything to get me away from him and this!

Real Time

After a heart-stopping play with time expiring, Brodney Pool intercepted Steve McNair's pass to defeat the Tennessee Titans 20-14. Whew! My heart almost stopped. Okay now I am ready to tell the blogger populance about my day!

Today I was applying for a federal government economist vacancy and emailed the representative that I have been experiencing problems with its QuickHire application. First another rep contacted me via email. Second, another rep called me regarding the issue. This is the same woman who called to inform me about my lack of graduate economic credit hours for a different economist position. (Coincidence, maybe.) Well, save the mishap at the Cleveland Foundation (its doors open at 12 noon on Mondays not 9:00. Oops! ) Thus far this morning, I have had a great day. Hopefully, I can keep this up!

Doing Too Much

Omg! While typing my cover letters for three federal positions, I have just realized that I do not have the mailing address to one and that I have virtually lost all of my Cleveland State University graduate economic application on a malfunctioning disk meaning that I must retype the cover letters. Well at least I have the remainder of today and the weekend to compsenate for this misadventure.

It Just Keeps Getting Better All of The Time

The Cleveland State University Career Fair was a rousing success! All of the business contacts, resumes, and new opportunities from knowing about the companies’ core competencies more than made up for an earlier spat. My best interview experience was with the Department of the Treasury Bureau of the Public Debt. The recruiter accepted both my resume and transcripts, told me that I would start the Financial Systems Analyst Career Intern position at GS-09 (which is a level above the GS-07 with Veterans Affairs). Though she would not return to her office until Monday, I am sending out my thank you letter today to ensure that she received it Monday. Furthermore, the recruiter mentioned that there was ONE position in Washington, D.C.; and, I will be the ONE individual who will land that position! The second best interview was with Goodyear Tire because even though I accidentally misplaced the Corporate Finance HR Manager’s business card (luckily, I found it), he still gave me his email address and proclaimed that as long as he had my resume I would be okay! The third best were the Deloitte and Ernst & Young whom provided me with HR Contact information plus phone numbers. Though there were some duds (two jobs closed that day) and some downright nasty representatives (an energy company shall remain nameless), overall, I had a very pleasurable experience.

Turning the Corner

Omg! What has just transpired is a bloggable because it coincides with another event that occurred two weeks to the day that a job counselor mentioned that I should employ the prisoner job search scheme towards finding gainful employment. After this conversation I have received some insider information and an opportunity to be on the receiving end of some good news!

The recruiter has called me regarding a federal vacancy that will be opening in the Cleveland area next week. The department has just received its funding for this position today and the man has contacted me to see if I want to be considered for this job. Okay a little backstory: I met this recruiter at the Cleveland Federal Executive Board career fair two weeks ago October 22, 2005. During our exchange, I told him that I applied for the agency’s Program Specialist position. Impressed he said that my insight was the reason why he is calling me. Throughout this conversation I am bewildered because this just cannot be happening! The recruiter has said that with my MBA I would start at a GS-7. However, me knowing that a Masters is at GS-9 pushed the envelope and inquired about the higher ranking to which he responded that this position starts at a GS-7 because it is a career intern/developmental post, therefore, I would initially qualify for the GS-7 level; however, after one year, I could be promote to GS-9. Of course, I have agreed and am in the process of writing him a thank you letter because I refuse to allow this opportunity to evade me!

Reconnect

In today’s Plain Dealer an article discusses that 170,000 youths aged 16 to 24 are disconnected from everyday life. A disconnected youth is one aged 16 to 24 with either a GED or a high school diploma who is not pursuing employment of higher education. My brother, though he is 26, perfectly fits this definition because he has his GED but neither pursues gainful employment nor higher education. He constantly floats between our parents and aunt. Whereas, I possess an MBA and a BA in International Economics, have traveled abroad to London and even though I am currently working part-time and actively searching for full-time employment. I will attend my third job fairs in two weeks and have aggressively networked with others to obtain leads. Also I am returning to college to obtain my M.A. in Economics to upgrade my skill set to become an Economist. Yet, I too want to become more connected and more engaged as an adult by relocating and moving to either Washington, DC or New York City. It is important that I be completely independent; and, isolating myself is the only way to accomplish this feat because everything would fall on me.

Right now I feel stagnant here and possessing a very strong, dynamic personality I need challenges and my present environment and family do not push me enough. Moving to one of these cities to become an Economist is my dream and therefore, I have rededicated myself to greatness. This is the only way to fulfill it. Rosa Parks was is the epitome of an engaged woman and American and the worked has clearly benefited because of her. This article, though is clearly not pointing the finger at me, has made me reevaluate my personal mission. It is essential that I undergo a personal transformation in order to realize all of my dreams, goals and ambitions which are the following: obtain both an M.A. and a Ph.D. in Economics, land an Economist post en route towards achieving tenure as a full professor at a top-tier university, Explore my creative side as a singer/songwriter, save my money to establish a foundation that will evolve and serve as the cornerstone for financing my own bank and college, and become the first woman Nobel Laureate in Economics. I have got a lot of work ahead of me and devoting myself towards achieving these objectives starts right now!

Informational Goldmine

After yesterday's disappointment, I focused on what I could do to regain control of my situation. Well self-reliance has paid dividends, because I have located numerous sources, retrieved an abundance of information and have billed more hours than last week (though my fingers are crossed because my employer hasn't returned my email regarding sending the transaction via priority mail. I will call him later.) At this pace, my next billing period's hours will exceed this week's. Right now I am establishing the protocols for this relationship, because I know that I need to be paid on a consistent basis and effectively communicating that is the only way to ensure that this occurs.

Focusing on myself has calmed me down enough to enjoy my life and stoppoing worrying about others. I took in two movies: Good Night and Good Luck yesterday and Doom today. Regardless of whatever happens, I will be okay because I am taking advantage of all of the opportunities afforded me at this time: three career fairs in two weeks, two networking events and a lot of free time! Hot dog! :)

Rise From the Ashes Like a Phoenix

I have just gotten off of the phone with my employer and I am more upset than ever. This is a contract position and every time I ask him for details, he replies that,” you need a computer.” Whatever! Be clear about the project. This experience just reinvigorates me to find another job! This is so not worth it.

Okay now that I have vented my frustration over his incompetence, I will focus on typing the thank you letters for all of the recruiters that I have met. With two recruiters already forwarding my resumes to the specific departments, I am in good hands. Also now I have enough time to take in a movie. Why allow him to anger me?

Many Happy Returns

Having obtained contact information of a recruiter for almost every recruiter, I hit pay dirt at the DiversityAmerica Career Fair! I couldn’t believe it was so easy. Even the bank recruiter who forwarded everyone else to the website upon mentioning my interview for the Business Analyst position at a local processing branch (this particular branch is also where she worked) gave me a specific contact person of that position! Also I ran into a fellow Urban League Young Professional at this career fair.

Now I will type my thank you letters and apply for the new jobs that I have discovered while conversing with the recruiters then mail them tomorrow to ensure that they receive them by Monday. This event has given me confidence to put my all into the Cleveland State University Diversity Career Fair next week Friday. I am so pumped!

Volunteer Some Time For Me

Memo to Self:
Effective immediately I will volunteer some me time for myself because this week has been extremely hectic. Even though I will probably be volunteering at a local non-profit afterwards, I will eat lunch then take in a movie. Probably George Clooney's Good Night and Good Luck. I need to de-stress myself from everything: CSU, the ASA/BLS grant, not receiving enough work hours and just life in general!

Good Karma II

Today I benefited from good karma during lunch. While purchasing a salad at Quizno’s, I tried to give the worker exact change but was short one penny. Though I had enough change to cover my meal, she just took one of the pennies from the cup and paid the balance. I am grateful that after spreading good energy, I can receive it because prior to that moment I had to deal with a bus full of messed up know-nothing alcoholic prophets! Well, at least something has happened to me and know I can transfer that positive energy to someone else.

Scholarship Treasure Hunt

I am currently on my scholarship hunt because I want to attend graduate school debt-free and by digging for awards, grants, fellowships and scholarships I will. Thus far, I have requested twelve scholarship applications by mail, have located over twenty, and have emailed nearly two dozen organizations for internships, fellowships and cooperative education programs. All of this work will add up eventually by my attending a graduate economics program with paying them one red cent.

Resolved to Have A Good Week

Okay this week has been a little too hectic for me, however, I am resolving today to have a good week.

Career Voyage

Today I attended the Federal job fair at a Cleveland area high school. Though overall career fair and representatives were cordial, there were a few (mainly the ATF guy and the CSU Career Service woman who no longer worked at the university but when inquiring about her contact info and who was just down right indignant at the career service table) who just plain annoying. Be upfront and answer the questions!

Okay now that I have vented I will tell you all of the good stuff that I discovered while attending. First, a federal agency will be offering management intern positions; and, a few others have some cooperative education agreements with the university. And, speaking of cooperative education programs, NASA is still receiving applications in the Cleveland, OH area until November 30th. During the informational seminar, a contact person notified the audience that if you are a graduate student at Cleveland State that you don’t have to register for the course! Yippee! :) However, afterward she did caution me about applying for a cooperative position simultaneously while reentering school. Good assessment because I hadn’t though about that.

The federal career fair provided me a great insight unattainable without attending this event and that outshines all of the problems!

Good Karma

I got my hair done today and was happy to learn that my beautician has hired three additional workers. It is good to see progress because I constantly wonder how she would keep the shop in the black. However, her three employees are very cordial and do hair and nails very well. I believe that she has received some blessings in her life because of the positive energy that emanates from her.

Throughout this month I have been emanating the same radiance. Last week during a part-time holiday sales interview a woman forgot her keys in the lobby and I walked over to the customer service representative. I didn’t take credit but thought it was important that she received her keys. I believe that this good karma reappeared yesterday when I forgot my disk at the Learning Connections lab. These events reinforce the fact that practicing benevolence makes life easier.

Speaking of which, my former employer has responded via email that she would love to serve as my recommender for Cleveland State! J Plus, the graduate secretary informed me that I had the criteria to be considered for a grad assistantship. My timetable is to submit all documentation by November 1, 2005 to ensure that I obtain the most financial aid available prior to the 2006 spring semester.

Today I am working on another assignment. Though the work is sporadic because I have neither a car nor a computer (I work at the library), creating my hours is addictive. I will complete the phone calls by later today. I hope that this out-of-county assignment lasts another week. My employer has three additional jobs and I have worked on another one located in my home county. The good part is that at least I am employed and can save some money for the future. Which will really help me because I need to finance an emergency fund for bills and employment travel. However, right now I am happy that I am doing what I love which is research; and, this real estate valuation experience will allow me to strengthen my candidacy for acceptance into the graduate program and an assistantship.

I'll keep you posted!

Rebounding in a Good Way

All right today had gotten much better after this morning’s debacle! I attended the FOCUS Day event only to discover that was geared to undergraduates. The girl at the table informed me that the Economics department was located in Rhodes Tower on the seventeenth floor. Immediately I took the elevator to my destination only to realize that I stepped into a maze. Arrows pointing in both directions adorned the signs and after circling the floor twice, I asked the graduate assistant who told me about the university’s Economic programs. He mentioned that the GRE wasn’t necessary (really, that’s great!) and that all I would need to become a degree-seeking student were an application, transcripts and two recommendation letters. That announcement brightened my day because now I could qualify for financial aid! The assistant also helped me secure an interview with the departmental chair.

Departing the university I ate lunch at the House of Blues. During lunch, I wrote the pros and cons of applying for degree status. Actually there weren’t any cons. Then I traveled to the county’s auditor’s office to copy the tax maps. My employer once again forgot why I needed to copy two maps (he gave me two parcel numbers) but overall the task was a cinch.

Obtaining financial aid would help me realize my goal of being debt-free and would complement my scholarship undertaking. I will continue searching for awards, grants, scholarships and fellowships to defray tuition costs. However, I am happy that the low barrier of entry would assist me in realizing my dreams. Now I just have to go to the financial aid office regarding my aid package.

Too Early in The Morning for This

I arrived at an organizational job agency earlier this morning. The recruiter gave me some pointers right from the pages of What Color Is Your Parachute? When I told him about it he remarked, “I’m not into job techniques!” Then told me that ex-cons were successfully at using this techniques. Yikes!

Anyway, this is just the beginning of my day. Later I have a FOCUS Day at Cleveland State University and then must squeeze in the Auditor’s stuff.

Passionate

Passion: 1) having or showing strong emotions. 2) hot-tempered 3) intense; ardent; rousing: as, a passionate speech. 4) lustful, amorous. 5) strong; vehement: said of emotion.

I am passionate about returning to school and have researched graduate awards, grants, fellowships and scholarships and have been pleasantly surprised by the amount of aid available to graduate economics students! These organizations will help me realize my goal of enrolling debt-free. This passion will assist me in every way of becoming the best person and professional that I can be.

Conviction

Conviction: a strong belief

I have a strong conviction that fear will never arrest me because I possess the self confidence to step out on faith. The last five years have been disappointing and left me uninspired; and, quite frankly, these feelings of inadequacy have run their course. This time my vision of becoming the best that I can be will come to fruition. Mark my words: I will be accepted into an economics program as first a nondegree student then a degree seeking student en route to obtaining a full-time Economist; In addition, I will excel, post a 4.0 grade point average; be on the Dean’s List every semester, expand my professional network that’ll serve as a career springboard to Washington, D.C. and be accepted into a top-tier Research I university after scoring no less than 1450 on the GRE. Along the way I will write my poems, songs and basically live my life the way it should be lived!

These may be ambitious objectives; however, today I have been rewarded: a university has notified me that because I paid the $30 processing fee as a nondegree graduate student in lieu of attaining my Master’s that the fee has been waived. This is the result of my conviction in myself!

Spread My Wings

Independence Air will be no longer be flying out of Cleveland after October 31st; however, I will be okay since Continental has a hub here; thereby, allowing me to continue my jet-setting ways! :)

I learned something today

Right now when I enter the learning connections lab at the main branch, the computer spit back a message saying that I used my two hours for the day. The librarian explained that SAMS is systems-wide and it allowed a patron to be on the computer for two hours anywhere. However, she overrode it for me.

Also while I am on the subject of learning, I must start learning that no matter how in love I am with an idea, read the fine print. In this case, it is Howard University. Its spring 2006 deadline was October 1st. Though I am ineligible for this semester, I do have other viable options such as remain here and attend CSU, save money than reapply or attend George Mason University or any other Metro DC area schools. GMU’s deadline is December 22, 2005 giving me two months to search for financial aid since I will be enrolling as a graduate non-degree applicant. The reason: I haven’t studied for the GRE yet. However, I have managed to request scholarship applications to ensure that I will be attending debt-free! :)

Take A Stand!

I have just gotten off of the phone with my employer and he agreed to meet Monday regarding my money. He initially tells me that I would be paid sometime next week. Is he crazy?! This contracting work is something else. When I meet I will have all of my work, all of hours, plus receipt copies to make sure that there won’t be no mess!

This is a Business

More than ever, this contractor position has taught me to treat my employment experience as a commodity and a business transaction. Document everything from hours to expenses. Thus Far, I have worked 16.5 hours on this project, and I hope that after submitting my report and neighborhood analysis that I could negotiate another contract and a higher pay rate. Of course, the first thing he might bring up is my lack of computer access but I have proficiently performed all assigned tasks on time. The documentation and accountability skills allow me to become the first black Fortune 500 female CEO!

My Life as a Real Estate Valuation Report Writer

I applied for this position and landed a contract position with a real estate valuation firm. The work is pretty interesting.

This was the first time sitting at a Kinko’s earning decent money to copy survey documents and value real estate properties. Of course, it was legal but still surreal because there was no structure. We just met in the videoconference room and went to work. No fingerprints, work authorization. No of that; however, during the process, I learned a lot about the real estate valuation process. Initially the aerial views, blueprints and portfolios overwhelmed me but after a couple hours and reminding myself that this isn’t every day when I can set my hours and receive decent pay, that I calmed down and regained focus. Afterward, my employer dropped me off at the Chagrin-Green intersection, where I caught the 94 then boarded the Green Line rapid for downtown to begin my research.

Unearthing all of this information has opened my eyes to the abundance of resources Greater Cleveland can offer. From real estate business association to partnerships to neighborhood corporations to city governments to chambers of commerce, it is all there. This job provided a much needed education about Cleveland’s happenings. All of this acquired knowledge will be beneficial towards my relocation plans.

Yesterday I met with my employer at the East Side Kinko’s to begin working as the Entry-Level Research Writer. A sole proprietor he was intelligent and aloof all the same. The meeting was surreal for me because this was the first time doing contract work. Prior I filled out forms, provided work authorization, etc. But this was different. However, I liked it because the pay was decent and I could set my own hours. J

Today I made phone calls, typed the SWOT analysis for the area, obtained additional development information pertinent to the appraisal, and visited the property to take pictures (which are currently being developed at the local pharmacy) and write down all of the parking lot rates within a two-block radius of the building. After picking up my pictures, I will review all of my information and begin revising my SWOT analysis.

Looking forward

After a three-year absence I am returning to college to pursue my M.A. in Economics in Washington, DC
Instead of looking back at mistakes and failures
Bristling at lost opportunities
I am looking forward optimistic at redefining my life on my own terms by recreating myself and my reality

I was great while in Washington, DC BUT I am miserable here in Cleveland because I realize my dreams here.
As one lady remarked during the educational seminar “Cleveland is a great place to live but a hard place to find a job”
I need to express myself as a mogul, singer/songwriter, and Nobel Prize in Economics laureate but most importantly EXCEL!

Life is too precious not to realize my potential
Therefore, when necessary change is inevitable
This is high time for a reassessment and course correction
Once again, I will be great because instead of looking back, I will be looking forward.

Due Diligence

After hours of surfing the Net, I have located numerous organizations, economic grants and scholarships that will aid me in my mission to attend graduate school debt-free! Whoopee! :) This weekend I will prepare a folder specifically for this undertaking to ensure that I never miss an opportunity.

Economic Explosion!

Today I printed all of the Google economic organizations resources that I discovered last night through my cell phone. Altogether there were 130 organizations presenting me with 130 opportunities to secure graduate funding. Mark my words this time I will enroll and graduate debt-free (Now that’s a real-world economics lesson! :))

I am so ready to matriculate at graduate school in Washington, DC or New York City, earn my economic sheepskin and kick butt in the corporate world either as a Bank Economist or Forensic Economist in a Litigation or Consulting Firm! Best believe one thing: in two years I will be better off than today.

Crazy Whirlwind

Today everything seems to be moving so fast that I cannot keep a steady pace! And it is only 1pm! From requesting graduate economics information to inquiring about my mobile phone bill to listening to the online web seminar, choas appears to be surrounding me. Ans, I still have the Sudan event later at 6pm. Whew!

This month on Lakeshore

October’s marketing and public relations meeting was at Arabica’s off of Lakeshore Avenue. This being my first time in this section of Cleveland, I thoroughly enjoyed the scenery. The 185th and Lakeshore neighborhood is an extremely progressive one with local shops varying from automotive dealers to video store to donut shop. The ambiance that emanated from this diverse community left a great impression making me to move here.

Driven

I have scored an 86% and passed the written driving examination on my first try! However, I mistaken the $7.50 state identification fee with the $22.00 temporary driver packet! The sticker price shocked me so much that I temporarily forgot that I have the money in my pocket.

Crystallize

Crystallize: 1) to cause to form crystals 2) to give a definite form to: as, crystallizer your thinking. 3) to coat with sugar. v.i. 1) to become crystalline in form. 2) to take on a definite form

Writing down all of my thoughts on paper helps me crystallize my mission statement. When my thoughts are in physical form, they possess formal structure, a concreteness that is easy to recognize. They are no longer dream. They have deadlines, objectives, meaning.

This is crystallization. Those dreams once potential energy, merely stagnant particles, have placed moved into action. Their elements have collided producing a kinetic, cataclysmic change.

Failure vs. Success: Unemployment

Right now I am unemployed for the third time this year; and, I am wondering what have I done to deserve this! I have both an MBA and a BA, strong data analysis, economic research and communication skills; however, this unemployment spell has been gnawing at my soul. I have value but it is hard to land a job here in Cleveland. I just don’t know. I have racked up frequent-flyer interviewing for economist positions in Washington, DC (because, hey, at least those employers are interested!). This state of not working has somewhat eroded my self-confidence because I don’t know when it will end. Hopefully soon because I cannot face being unemployed anymore.

Minor Setback

I have delayed taking the written portion of the driving test until Tuesday because I do not have a great grasp on the points and traffic violations yet; however, by the weekend, I will.

What's Good About Cleveland

This post derived from today's Field Economist phone interview. The interviewer wanted me to write a two to three-page essay about What's good about Cleveland? Below is my essay.

What is good about Cleveland

Cleveland, a city of a little over 500,000 people, is a cosmopolitan metropolis with an abundance of arts, music and entertainment to satisfy anyone.

Arts, Culture and Entertainment
During this summer, I partook in three different but amazing festivals. The first one was IngenuityCleveland, a festival which combined arts, culture and music with technology and innovation. Throughout the Labor Day weekend, I was treated to the Cleveland Museum of Art incorporated technology to offer visitors a fresh perspective on art. There were 3-D animated movies and a laser machine that uncovered Picasso’s mistakes in one of his blue period paintings. NASA Glenn Research Center highlighted its Garrett Morgan Business Initiative partnership with a Cleveland school to teach students about implementing music with computers. During the hour-presentation, local music production and filmmaking were highlighted. The Art Gallery Hop offered me a chance to view various downtown, East and West art galleries via a trolley. During this event, three other festivals, Tremont Art Festival, the Cleveland Plain Dealer newspaper’s ArtJam Festival and the Cleveland Playhouse Theater’s Centerfest, ran concurrently allowing me to culturally immerse myself in art, acting, ballet, fashion and theatre. At the ArtJam Festival, I visited Pink’s Daily Planner, a start-up haute couture here in Cleveland; while attending the Tremont Festival I ate sweet potato chips. The Taste of Cleveland, also during the Labor Day weekend, I enjoyed music entertainments and numerous concerts from big-name artists.

Sports
Cleveland is home to a bunch of die-hard fanatics. Right now the Cleveland Indians are tied with the Boston Red Sox and the New York Yankees for the American League wild-card pennant race. I am also an avid fan of the Cleveland Cavaliers (basketball) and the Cleveland Browns (NFL football) as well as the Ohio State Buckeyes! Plus I religiously watch Channel 5’s Sports Saturday and Sunday; Channel 3 The Point After and Channel 19’s Sunday and Monday BrownsTown for all of the latest sports information.

Travel
Cleveland is strategically located 500 miles from both Washington, DC and New York City. Its prime location provides the access to diverse array of cultures, arts, theater and entertainment, because I can take either a plane, bus or train to these two cities. I have accumulated frequent flyer miles because of my jet-setting lifestyle and my love for arts, culture and entertainment. Washington, DC has the Smithsonian while New York City has Broadway. During my last DC trip, I visited the Freer Art Gallery where I viewed the Asian, African and Arabian artwork. As a connoisseur, Cleveland’s location allows me to get my art fill.

Cleveland offers an eclectic mix of arts, culture, and entertainment and many travel options to other cultural hubs. This is an exciting place where there is always something interesting to do, and these three things are what is good about Cleveland.

I have finally done! I have finally walked into the Maple Heights Bureau of Motor Vehicles at 9am to ask about the written test examination procedures. The state patrolman asked if my license was suspended to which I replied, "No." Then he said to complete the paperwork and wait in line. It was THAT easy! While leaving, I notice that the bureau opens at 8am. I will be there bright and early at 8am Thursday morning because I will pass the written test, obtain my temporary license and become more self-reliant in the process.

I have been scared about securing a license because of my epilepsy and seeing numerous crashes on television and personally being affected by my mother's car accident; however, today, is the first step towards getting over that fear.

Henceforth, from each day onward I will devote myself towards becoming more self-reliant.

My Financial Aha! Moment

I have just had my Aha! Moment today while reading the backcover of the Sister CEO book. A famous actress asserted that the author's book, "enables me to see that if I could take 10% of my money and give to tithes or charities, I could also take at least 10% and reinvest in myself and my children to come."

That was a powerful statement because it makes me realize how I should allocate my money. I can save 10% for donation, therefore, I can save 10% of my money towards my business. No doubt the Sister CEO book will provide me with a wealth of knowledge which has placed me on the right path towards becoming the first black Fortune 500 CEO with majority ownership!

Gallery Hopping Part 1

I took the 7:48am 19 bus downtown to get a bite to eat then connect with the 9:01am 25B. Well, that didn’t work because I missed the bus by thismuch and was forced to wait another thirty minutes. Rats! This detour made me lost because MLK Drive is in a different location on Woodland Avenue than Buckeye. Lost I asked an old man for directions to MLK Drive off of Buckeye. Two lights down, he responded. While walking down Buckeye en route to my destination, Full Gospel Evangelistic Church, the 25B magically appears passing me as it chugs uphill to South Moreland. What do you know?!

At least I hadn’t arrived too late I secretly murmured to myself as I finally arrive, however, there is another problem confronting me: how to enter this fortress. The steel fences locked the church and I could had located any entry. Luckily, passerby familiar with the neighborhood and he too leaving a volunteer assignment at a local church found one. Immediately I scrambled inside the church to begin work. Throughout the incessant downpour, the rain didn’t make the basement musty! Yet the work area was twenty degrees hotter than the hallway. Upon entering the volunteer room, I met with the coordinator who told me where my t-shirt and name sticker were. After putting them on, I asked for instructions. He instructed me to vacuum the floor to get rid of the plaster. The only way to cut the industrial vacuum cleaner on and off was through the plug so everytime I used it I had to scoot down on the floor with the millipedes to put the plug back into the socket! L The coordinator took pictures of us working with this digital camera and throughout the day we discussed our lives after Hiram. Honestly, I was amazed that I was one of the youngest alumni there especially in the Cleveland metropolitan area. Being the youngest was an asset to me because I could talk to engage in conversation with everybody from the alumni to staff.

During my doughnut break, I talked with the panty coordinator. An elderly lady in her sixties, she discussed the length of the program, its service to the community and her family. She had two daughters: one who worked in Washington, DC at the Internal Revenue Service (is that I sign since my I received a phone interview for the IRS Economist position?) and another daughter who graduated from Spelman and attended Case for her graduate studies. This exchange made me realize that I needed to volunteer more in order to meet more progressive people like her. As the break ended, I reentered the storage room. Painting the walls were next on the agenda. Although I was by myself, I managed to do a pretty good job of painting the wall instead of myself. Not even the snide remark by the go-for-nothing parishioner dampened me spirit. Impressed with my hard work, left told the coordinator that I would be leaving.

Upon exiting the church, I sat at the bus shelter in the rain for the (you guessed it) the 25B to take me down to the Gallery Hop. Even though it was raining, I remained undeterred because this was an event I would be attending, That decision was made right after the IngenuityCleveland Festival! Rain, sleet, hail, snow. Didn’t matter because I wanted to view all of the different art galleries throughout Cleveland; and, my ticket to ride was a $5 Gallery Hop trolley pass which could be used then entire weekend. Cool! First stop was the CVS was I purchased a camera. Second order: purchase the $5 Gallery Hop trolley pass. Immediately buying it, the trolley appeared. Impeccable timing or what. Throughout the ride, I saw The Centerfest on East Fourteenth Street, the ArtJamFestival located in front of the city’s newspaper central office on Superior Avenue, and the artist sections of Saint Clair. My first official departure point was the Tremont Festival which usually was a bustling place but because of the rain deterred many people from partaking in the events. I wlaked around tasted some sweet potato chips (they were good!), bought a $3 hamburger dinner (it came with macaroni salad and baked beans and you cannot beat that). The next place were the two galleries in Tremont. One in particular had this magnificent jewelry box, and though it cost $65, I could see it in my collection very soon. Hopping back on the trolley, we passed Tremont Scoops. Both the passengers and the tour guides raved about this place and after visiting Arterfino I promised myself that I would eat some ice cream.

The return ride back from Tremont was unforgettable. We had Vicki Blum Vigil, the author of Cleveland Cemeteries, served as our tour guide providing us with an abundance of history during our trip. She quizzed the riders on local trivia. While on the Carnegie-Lorain bridge she asked us a question about a famous Cleveland chef but before she finished I shouted Chef Boyardee. Vicki said “Oh, she gave away the answer! (Well, that historical fact plays on Channel 5 every morning.)” Then trolley driver espoused about how the Gateway district was once Big Italy because 90% of Cleveland’s population consisted on Italians. Now that’s when things got interesting. Chef Boyardee was Italian and the commercial said that he was buried in Parma, OH; but, Vicki proclaimed that he wasn’t because she had some verifiable proof. Plus she wrote about cemeteries should she should know. Whew! Go tell! :)

Total Money Makeover

Yesterday I attended a meeting sponsored by BankBlackwell, the only black Internet bank to pitch its investment opportunity prior to the Black Enterprise Financial Education Seminar. The president of the bank discussed some important topics within the black community and during the presentation motivated me to develop a financial plan to ensure that I deposit the $1000 necessary to join by the February 26, 2005 cut-off date.

While he spoke all of a sudden passages from the Financial Money Makeover book popped into me head. Automatically the $1000 emergency fund flashed in my mind. If I can save $1000 for an emergency then I can cave $1000 for an investment opportunity! This goal I dubbed as my Pre-New Year's Resolution.

The BankBlackwell president also mentioned that the average age of a black bank customer was 55 years old, whereas, his target market is aged 35 years. After the meeting, I told him that I was only 28 years and he said that the bank would consider anyone over age 18. Cool! This exchange further helped solidify a financial game plan because I know that by age 35 I will be well-off. Well, better off than those two kooky people who tried to undermine me when asking a question about placing ATMs into the major airports as part of BankBlackwell's campaign. The asshole remarked "Well, people fly Southwest. Whatever!" The average price ticket is still higher than Greyhound1

Overall, the meeting had me seriously thinking about wealth generation and for once this week that was a good thing.

Not Today but It's Okay

Yesterday after jumping on the rapid only to jump right off at East 55th Central Rail station because my phone is still acting up, I eventually made it to Shake Square Cinemas to catch An Unfinished Life. However, the ticket counter representative informed me that "they are having problems with the film." Rats! "But I could view any other movie free of charge." Great! Immediately I ordered a large Pepsi and sat in my seat to once again see Four Brothers. I am addicted to this film because it is just so great. The critics are right when comparing it to an updated Western because whenever one brother is in trouble the remaining brother round up "the posse"! Okay back to day.

Today I must return to the same mobile phone company counter to receive a store credit because it messed up my service. I will arrive as soon as the store opens because this cannot hamper my day. Besides, I have things to do such as submit applications and look for work. This recurring disruption will not be tolerated under any circumstance!

Another roadblock (well this time it is of my making). I have decided to attend the Financial Education Seminar today only after reading a critique from the paper. When I visit the website, the Cleveland is not longer available. Argh! That means $65 at the door. The reason why I have had reservations about attending is because I am currently unemployed. Well, I will attend this event if not this year then next. But the first order of today is to find a permanent full-time with benefit. Well, there is always Cleveland Saves.

This is unbelievable!

Last Friday during a phone interview my pay-as-you-go phone cut off mid-interview. Luckily, I was at home and had a landline phone available to continue it. Immediately afterwards, I traveled to the next mobile store to switch my plan from prepaid to postpiad. The representative asked me if I wanted to keep my original number and I replied, "yes." Okay. The represenative told me that the conversion process would take 24 hours meaning that by Saturday everything should have been set up. Right?

Wrong! It is Monday and low and behold when I enter my original number into the phone company's database, it spits out that my phone number is cancelled. What! I am taking this first to the kiosk point-of-contact then to the Consumer Safety Product Commission because the representative signed the contract stating that my current number is temporary.

Labor Day Weekend

Let the party begin! Today is Saturday and I will be attending two events: IngenuityCleveland and the Taste of Cleveland. I will imerse myself culturally and take pictures!

Basking in All of the Glory

Good news! A federal agency is so interested in me as a candidate for the Economist position that HR has emailed me the employment forms (which I immediately mailed today) and a recruiter has arranged a phone interview for early next week! Also, the recruiter has mentioned that she wants a writing sample forwarded prior to the interview. I have the discretion of selecting the length and subject matter. J This makes the second government agency that has contacted me this week. And, including the private sector Associate Consulting Economist position, my weekly total is three. Things are really looking up for me!

Earlier this morning, I tested 81% in Word and 84% in Excel at a temporary agency! Calling the downtown recruiter regarding the receipt of my scores (I took them at a different branch and they failed to print), he said that early next week he should have an answer for me because my scores are great!

While I bask in the glory receiving all of the good news regarding the Economist positions, I have finally taken the Labor recruiter’s recommendation about my failure to meet the minimum GS-07 requirements into full consideration. She stated that I needed more graduate economic courses. I asked if I needed 18 and she concurred. Today I filed my FAFSA and searched for scholarships at Cleveland State University. Even if I do garner these other positions, I will still use tuition reimbursement to finance my doctorate in Economics. The recruiter’s comments were sound and unbiased plus she didn’t to attack or degrade my contributions.

Later today I will finish typing the final thank you letters for my Monday Economist interviews, enjoy the weekend!

My Aha Moment

Today is the first day that I have felt like a success at my job because I have managed to correct all of my mistakes. Thus far, I have completed five links and with Audese out I will probably complete ten. Knowing that I am proficiently performing all assigned tasks without much assistance! This means that I can go to lunch at 12:00pm or 12:30pm without fearing some systems malfunction.

During lunch, I will ea shrimp at the Galleria Gyro spot while writing the answers to the Program Analyst announcement. The Wright Patterson Air Force has opened this vacancy for 24 hours, I am intent on applying because I can travel and get paid simultaneously J

Instead of running around finishing errands, I will just lay back and enjoy the sunshine without thinking “oh my goodness I need to finish this else the entire world will end.” None of that today. I will be okay if fashion designer Druewho? Doesn’t return my phone call. I will be okay to wait twenty-four hours until I apply for the voice class. I have just electronically transferred. Let’s not allow it to burn a whole into my wallet just yet.

Even though I forgot to pack the vacancy announcement, I still had a very good lunch. Enjoying the lake’s breeze and sunshine, these elements replenished me. The sun’s rays took to my skin like chloroform to a plant. It feel wonderful to soak in the sun free from responsibilities for just an hour.

While daydreaming I often wondered about my former coworkers at First American across the street. Reggie informed me that they had their interviews last week. Since tomorrow is Friday, I will probably run into someone tomorrow on the group’s timecard run to Kelly Services. I am interested in knowing the status of everyone there; and, I hope that everyone is hired. The last job was okay but it left very unsatisfied. Once I got the hang of this one, I felt better because I was doing something on a mentally stimulating level. I was on a computer, entering data into enterprise software and getting paid like an adult. No more monotony!

For the remainder to today I will finish the nineteenth. There are only four links to be created and they would be completed by the end of today. Thus, today’s total would be eleven links, a personal best; and, more importantly, no catastrophic failures J


During the break, I will fax my transcripts for the GG-0343-09 T Program Analyst vacancy. I know that I will complete the online profile at the library after work. I am happy that I have the resources to apply for this position, because had I been in my former temp job, I could have capitalized upon this opportunity because there wasn’t any Internet access.

I have printed the BEA paper which will improve my economic understanding for the assessment test. Immediately before departing for the second break, I will visit my email and print out some more reports. Having passed the BLS assessment test, my goal is to reach at least 90%. The tests are the same so how can I go wrong?


During my afternoon break, I paid $5 towards the Project Act charity so that I could wear jeans Friday. The secretary even copied the memo for me. Then I went to Kinko’s to fax my transcripts for the Program Analyst vacancy but this man plugged the fax machine resending a document even though the line was completely busy the entire time. I asked a worker if the one behind the counter worked and she replied, “No, it didn’t receive a signal.” Okay. Returning to the other machine, I tried to send my documents but to no avail because it was jammed with busy requests from the man. This errand went from five to ten minutes to nearly twenty. Luckily, I didn’t have to check in and out else I’d be screwed!

Now I will go to the library just to apply for the Program Analyst position then leave to fax the transcripts so that I do have to wait for the 6:40pm bus. At least I arrived at 7:30am allowing me to depart at 4:30pm. J However, that episode inconvenienced me big time.


Leaving work, I attempted to resubmit my transcripts using both numbers but to no avail. So much for that plan. However, I did apply for the Regional Economist position. Though it is in Alaska, there is 25% relocation assistance if I consider the position.

My day has gone well and here’s to hoping that tomorrow is a repeat.

Revolution

Another year has passed. The earth has made another revolution around the sun. Tomorrow is my birthday and today I am reflectingon all of the events, good, bad and indifferent, that have happened to me during thes past 365 days.

I am grateful for the wisdom that certain situations have provided me. Experience is the best teacher.

At age twenty-eight, I have accomplished a lot of things: possess two degrees, traveled outside of the United States, have flown almost everywhere and have displayed a very positive attitude when adversity hits.

This year I will accomplish the following:
Build equity and create a sound-proof financial plan that will help me reduce debt, relocate and travel.
Enroll in voice classes and copyright my material
Reinvent my style to mesh both casual and corporate-Also have more items tailored
Travel more often especially outside of the country. I need to live more and quite being so uptight.

My First Day on the New Job and It is the End of the World As I Know It

My first day at this job was completely overwhelming! I had to remember several different passwords and steps to completing the databases. Then I had the trainer from hell: well, I couldn't really blame her because it was her twenty-fifth birthday and she had to come into work. My birthday is tomorrow and I am glad that these events didn't transpire on mine.

Hapy 28th birthday to me! :)

Continuum

When one doors closes... Another opens.

Today I ended my temporary assignment as a Quality Control Support Clerk logging 275 mortgages, my second highest number during this three-week period. That effort left me on a good note with everyone. My cohorts and immediate supervisor took me to the Winking Lizard for my birthday. Though the service and the waitress were rehensible, I enjoyed their presence.

Next Monday, I begin my Consultant assignement with a Big 4 accounting strategic business unit. The pay is better but so are the skills and responsibilities. :)

Career Explosion

Yesterday I flew to Washington, DC to attend the Commerce Department's Career Expo. Initially I planned to stay for an hour; however, with the majority of the agencies present and bureau presentations from an International Economist working at the International Trade Administration, I remained there for three hours. The event was extremely engaging, because I discussed the status of my economist applications with actual hr recruiters! Also, I obtained some business cards and discovered that I was eligible for additional jobs with other agencies. Though I only received three hours of sleep, I felt rejuvenated because I knew that I worked the room and extended my professional network. This career opportunity allowed me to pick some low lying fruit. And, I enjoyed every moment of it :)

Whoopeee!

I have been confirmed for another temporary placement with a Big 4 accounting firm business unit which could turn permanent after 90 days! :) This news more than compensates for leaving my computer disks at home.

Persist

1) To refuse to give up especially when faced with opposition. 2) to continue insistently, as in repeating a question. 3) to endure remain, last.

Affirmation
Life is a journey not a destination
And, I must display persistence and fortitude along the way.

Quality Control

Update: I have begun working a full-time temporary job as a Quality Control Support Clerk with a mortgage company. Today I have logged 200 mortgages the daily average for this position. If I continue to perform at this pace, the firm would extend a permanent position. Though this job as a permanent position would be okay, I am working towards becoming an On-Line Searcher then an Escrow Officer! :)

Job Search Drama

This job searching thing has been killing me lately because this week I have gone to two career fairs and have tested at one temporary agency, however, no permanent job leads as of yet. Maybe I wouldn't have been as cynical if I haven't has to wait in line for nearly one hour to interview for one position. And, I have pre-registered for this event. My legs are wobbly. My feet hurt and I am almost exhausted! In addition, I had to pay $4.60 to print resumes!

As I exit, the career fair, I walked over to the nearby temp office where I am registered to learn about the present status of a pending job order. He hs informed me that there is something currently in the works and will notify me later today. In addition, I have also I have received an email from another recruiter interested in discussing opportunities with me. I swear Tuesday's career informational interviews with a superregional bank was far more interesting and productive!

The bank advertised in the newspaper, radio and college. That fair lasted for two days. When I interviewed with the bank, there were four recruiters plus the diversity administrator whom I met. They were divided to represent two divisions: global trade services and corporate finance. The recruiters were cordial during both sessions and I received a business card and two human resources pamphlets from the administrator. Wow! What a difference two days make!

Yet I still reamin undaunted in my job search for a full-time permanent job. There are some more good things that should be coming such as the Pricing Analyst job with another employer, and Economist, Financial Analyst and Business Analyst positions located out of state.

I truly believe that I am on the cusp of greatness! I just hope I will realize it soon than later.

Shine

I shine like the cosmos
That light up the sky
Phenomena like Andromeda
My velocity can't be measured by an odometer
Radiate like the sun
Envelopes all no one shuns
Blast into the stratosphere
Now I'm in full orbit
Absorbing all of the positive energy here!

New York Job Status

During the interview the big wigs to inform me that they have experienced a "hiring freeze" imposed by HQ and that they would know by the end of this week. However, I am not holding my breath because I am doing well in other areas.

Performance Indicator

Enrolling in the Access Class today and executing on the Excel test tomorrow will position me to secure a higher paying job, because I will have a more competitive skill set. Access is a database and Excel is big in finance and accounting. Since I have a financial analysis background, Excel will help me enormously!

The remainder of this week, I will allocate an hour towards improving my computer knowledge by creating spreadsheets and databases. I have decided to catalog my job search in Access. This will provide me with an abundance of homework. Also, I can document my travel expenses in Excel. Instead of viewing my elongated job search as a bust, I have decided to transform it into a boon by acquiring skills to augment my repertoire. By the end of this week, I will have accomplished my objectives.

Still Climbing

I'm still climbing the ladder of success
And I haven't reached the apex yet

Faster Is Not Always Better

Today I interviewed for the Quality Control Clerk position but during the conversation with the recruiter she mentioned the Online Searcher post which I believed that I could be more of an asset to this organization. Immediately she returned with two men who worked for that department. This exchange also went for everything but one: the salary. Neither man mentioned the job's pay rate only said that it was hourly and available for overtime.

This astounded me because I refuse to work for any employer without knowing my starting rate! Remember, faster is not always better!

Which takes me to the next story about my New York Citytravel plans. Next week, I have an interview with a big-time employer and I have succumbed to my insecurities of riding the Greyhound to and fro the interview so I plunged an exorbitant amount of money on a plane ticket to keep this mirage of first-class professional going. Nevermind, that I know that I am currently unemployed, without a car and have accepted an interview with an insurance which I must catch a cab back from because the bus doesn't run after rush hour! It is all spur of the moment but I do feel somewhat validated and vindicated amount my actions. Hey, I could say that when I secure the New York job that that was the past and this is the present! :)

Just remember, faster is not always better! I will write additional entries regarding my interviewing experiences and the New York trip.

The Best Is Yet To Come!

Today I had a phone interview for the Economist position! The best is yet to come! :)

Claim It!

One day during my commute an old lady told me that if I wanted something I’d have to claim it! Exclaim it as mine. Those words empowered me to seize the day and every opportunity that comes my way.

That phrase reenergized my spirit and reinvigorated my soul
To pursue my lifelong goals
I want to be the first black Fortune 500 CEO who retains majority ownership
Every day I will claim this as my dream and will own it every day of my life

Permit

Permit: 1) to allow to be done; consent to 2) to authorize; give leave 3) to give opportunity for

I permit myself to achieve greatness by ignoring other people’s opinions of me.

Fruition

Everything is coming into fruition. And, I just LOVE it!

Carla

Grateful Journal Entry: May 6, 2005

I am grateful for these five things:

1) I have my health!

2) I have taken time out for me.

3) I have taken myself so serious.

4) Having read today's paper about Pauline Bunkley McCadden's journey towards earning her libral arts degree from Cleveland State University (my alma mater) at age 78, has motivated me to do more. I don't have any of her trials and tribulations, therefore, I should accomplish more!

5) That I am currently working towards my future of being an Economist by studying for the BLS assessment.

Happiness Lies Within Me

I create my own happiness
My own sorrow
My own peace
My own heaven
My own hell
My own highs
My own lows
And so it goes

Happiness is a choice
I choose to be happy
Release positive energy
To impact me emotionally

Happiness is a groundswell of
Overflowing and outpouring
Gushing like a geyser
Sprouting like Ole Faithful
Springing forth a renewed spirit
And for me a happier life

More

I want more!

Mastery
Over
Real
Events

Courage

Dispel fears
Instill courage
Ward off uncertainty that's near
Eliminate the scourge
That cripples confidence
Fear has no residence
Because my courage is evidence
That I possess the internal drive
To survive and thrive
In this life

Affirm

I will become and Economist by golly because I have placed my heart and soul into it!

I affirm that this vision with come to fruition!

Spring Cleaning!

Here's to spring cleaning! Today is I rid myself of everyone and everything that erodes my self-esteem and well-being!

Carla

Never Discouraged

Regardless of what happens to me today, tomorrow or any time in the future, I will stay true to my goal and never become discouraged.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentine's Day to all!

From

Carla R. Jenkins

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